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God, help me to walk in Your will. This situation is so painful at times.

I cannot see the outcome. When I look up, there is hope & visions of restoration. When gravity pulls my eyes downward, all hope is gone and my thoughts are troubled with despair, loneliness, pain, heartache, financial and emotional troubles.

I pray this prayer with my eyes focused on You.

I screwed up. I admit it freely, but not lightly. My actions have caused real damage and that may extend even further. I have hurt the ones I should have loved the most. God, please fix this. Please restore our family. Please restore our marriage. Please let this be Your will. I cannot see the outcome. I know I severely damaged our marriage with bitterness and hate spewed out like venom. I know it has been an emotional cancer in my wife. You healed my physical cancer. You can heal hers, too. You can repair the damage.

You have changed me. You have made me whole. You are breaking me and rebuilding me. My trust is in You. Please restore our marriage & family. Only You can do that now. Human words and works will fail. You have the power and are the Great Healer. I boldly ask that you heal our hearts so that they may be able to carry Your love, together, anew.

Turn the cage into a Holy bond. Turn the trap into a Holy union. Turn the fear into love. Turn the doubt into trust (in and through You).

I know what a mighty work I'm asking for. I know this is not a "quick fix". I am asking for the privilege and opportunity to begin the journey together again.

I will not cease in my prayer. I will persevere in this request. Help me to trust in You and to keep my eyes looking up.